It's been a while

I noticed that it has been a while since I really posted here.  I've been in a bit of a slump the past 6 months or so.  So I haven't had much to say.  I guess I still don't.  But I've been learning some things I've always wanted to know.  To gain understanding of different ways of being.  I have lived a very sheltered sort of life.  I do not really know much of the world. 

One thing I have always been curious about is the world of Fandom.  I have lots of musicians and actors and stuff that I like.  But I've never been one to be obsessive(shockingly, since I obsess about pretty much everything) about it.  I've never understood that mentality.  So since I started watching Korean t.v., fans are something you cannot avoid.  Reading comments on YouTube is very entertaining, especially when it comes to "idols."  I had no idea there was such a thing as an "anti" fan.  I mean, I knew that something like that existed, there's always been haters.  But the anti-fans can take it to a whole new level.  So I am beginning to understand a little more about this sort of mentality. 

It's also like the people who dress up as their favorite anime/manga/game characters and go to cons.  Sure, I'd love to dress up and go to DragonCon, but I would go as a random steampunker, not anyone in particular.  It's pretty fascinating. I understand dressing up.  I think it's fun, and there is a lot of that lacking in the world.  It's the obsession with one thing that gets me.  Maybe just because my obsessions are so varied.  My obsessions often have to do with the level of mental boredom I am experiencing.  So it occurs to me to wonder how big of a part boredom plays in other people's obsessions.  It has also occurred to me that there must be a lot of lonely people out there.  Also, I think there are a lot of people dissatisfied with themselves, so becoming someone else takes away that pain. 

Can you tell my thoughts on the subject are still somewhat jumbled.  But taking on a sort of vague coherency.

So anyway.  This is what I have been thinking about lately.